class chalet is coming.
.. and not going to be full attendance.

-.-
to think.. i forgo work for the chalet.
i could earn ALOT more and then, i'll be damn close to.. earning my sch fee for next sem. yes, i'm still on the topic of "independence".

and do anyone know i actually feel bad abt not going work, but because i promised to attend the class chalet since a thousand million years ago.. so i kept my promise.
yet i just got to know, so many ppl are not coming. what's a class chalet w/o unity?

forget it.
i've had enough of hell days for the past few days. nothing is going right, everything's wrong.

mistakes by others become my problem. BECAUSE others have that innocent face while i've that rebellious face? because others know when to show "respect" while.. i dont show respect to those that are not worthy of it. because others got that cute face which aunties like, while my face only shows all my emotions.

i need to apply what i learn.
i need some anger management. i need to know how to control my emotions properly.
i am actually tired.. of it.

妈的, 我不想再去在乎别人的感受了
很累……真的很累！
每天担心谁不开心， 谁又生气了
可是……谁知道我也累了？！

unfairness in this world is forever there.
and it's C day for the past few days and i hate it.

... i srly dont know how to be a good gal at all.
maybe because i'm too use to being naughty and yet, everyone who loves me try their best to accomodate. and thats perhaps the reason why.. i'm finding it so damn hard to be good.. at all.